A break through and Becky's "before"

I often dread exercise.  I guess I don't dread the actual exercising part, it's the getting ready; it's the fear of failure; it's the horror of doing it and not even seeing/feeling results.  The thing is, I rarely see results but I always feel them.  Exercising makes me feel good.  Most times it gives me MORE energy and NOT LESS. 

Because of my anxiety I put it off last week.  Each day I did, I felt more and more guilty.  Friday evening I told Nathan that I needed his help to get me out the door to exercise.  He said, "Ok, what time are you going to go?"  I said, "8:00," thinking it was going to be too dark and still hoping (a little) it wouldn't be.  It was.  I didn't go.  I felt like a lazy idiot.  I'm mean, who was I fooling?  Not me!  Not anyone else. 

So....

Saturday I got up and I was out the door ready to run at 7:15.  I did great!  I truly surprised myself!  This little town doesn't look so hot and dry in the morning shade, before the sun comes over the mountains (hills).  It was beautiful.  It was hard, but I pushed myself.  I still haven't clocked on my car odometer but, I think it was a least a mile. 

While I ran I thought of a lot of things.  Mostly about the relay race I ran last October.  How fun it was.  How anxious I was training for it.  How much fun the ladies I ran it with were and how supportive and loving they were. 

I thought about blogging and how fulfilling it was going to be to write this post.  I did it!  A success!  

The song that ran through my head (without headphones) was Queen's "Don't Stop Me Now!"

Don't stop me now
Don't stop me
Cuz I'm havin' a good time
Havin' a good time

I'm a shootin' star leaping through the sky like a tiger
Defying the laws of gravity
I'm a racin' car passin' by
Like Lady Godiva
I'm gonna go go go
There's no stoppin' meeeee
I'm burnin' through the sky
Yea! 
200 degrees!
Which is why they call me Mr. Fahrenheit
I'm traveling at the speed of light
Wanna make a super sonic man out of you!

Don't stop me now
I'm havin' such a good time
I'm havin' a ball
Don't stop me now
If you wanna have a good time
Just give me a call
Don't stop me now
Cuz I'm havin' a good time
Havin' a good time
I don't want to stop at all!!!

Ok, that's enough of that.  That is one really great song!  I love it.  And it kept me pushin'.  In fact, yesterday I ran again.  It was harder...I don't know why but runnning seems to get harder the more I do it...not easier...but still rewarding.  Monday I took my iPod and made sure Queen was pumping in my ears.  There are actually quite a few great Queen songs that are great for exercising. 

Now the strength training hurtle is next.  I don't really have a space to do it where my in-laws won't run into me.  They totally wouldn't mind...but, I might.  I also don't have weights, which Amy assures me isn't a problem.  I just need to do it.  I'M GOING TO DO IT!!  TODAY!!!

Here are some "before" pictures!

I look like I'm half asleep in this one.  I thought I had blinked...but, no, just about to blink.

This one is better.

And yes, for those of you who didn't know.  I got my hair cut.

Please keep cheering us on!